Kutheni “KuMariya Omncinci”?

Ngo-1996, ibhinqa elingaziwa eRoma, elibizwa ngokuba "nguMariya omncinci" (Incinci Maria) waqala ukufumana iindawo ezaziwa ngokuba yi "Drops of Light" (NguLuce), apho abavakalisi abadumileyo baseItali Edizioni Segno ikhuphe imiqulu ye-10 kwifomu yencwadi, yakutshanje ukuthandana ukusuka kwi-2017, nangona imiyalezo iqhubeka. Ulwazi kuphela olunikezelweyo malunga nommkeli kukuba ungumfazi wendlu elula kunye nomama ohlala kwintlupheko kunye nokufihlakala. Iindawo, ezibizwa ngokuba nguYesu, ubukhulu becala zikhanyisa ufundo lweMisa yolo suku, kodwa ngamanye amaxesha zichaphazela imicimbi yangaphandle. Kwabo baqheleneyo noncwadi oluntsonkothileyo lwamaKatolika lwale mihla, ithoni nentsingiselo yawo, umxholo weZibhalo oxineneyo ufana neentetho ezinde zeNkosi ezifumaneka kwimibhalo kaLuisa Piccarreta, uMaria Valtorta okanye uDon Ottavio Michelini.

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Intshayelelo yamathontsi okuKhanya (NguLuce) ebhalwe “nguMariya Omncinane,” ngokomyalelo womalathisi wakhe wokomoya—iguqulelwe ngokusuka kwisiTaliyane. 

Ewe Maria!

Ngamana 28, 2020

Ndibhala le leta ngokuthobela ubawo wokomoya, oye wandicela amaxesha amaninzi ukuba ndichaze ibali elithi "Amathontsi okukhanya" (NguLuce), oko kukuthi, kwaqala njani konke.

Lithini ibali elithi "iDrops of Light?" Umbuzo wokuqala endimele ndiwubuze, nendandizibuza wona, ngulo: “Kutheni kum, Nkosi? Ingena njani le nto yokomoya entliziyweni yam?”

Ebudeni bexesha, ndiye ndakwazi ukuyichaza, indlela enokwenzeka ngayo kum, nendlela uncedo lukaThixo olukhoyo.

Kwaqala ngolu hlobo. Kwiminyaka emininzi ngaphambili, emva, unokuthi, ukufumana kwakhona ukholo, ukulandela ixesha lomgama ebutsheni bam kwaye emva koko ndadibana nzulu nomntu kaYesu, bekusenzeka kum ukuba, emthandazweni, phambi kwemifanekiso engcwele. , ezicaweni, ecaleni kwamangcwaba abangcwele, okanye xa umthandazo ubunzulu, obusenyongweni, ngokukodwa xa ndicamngca ngeemfihlelo zoMvumo weNkosi, intetho yomnye yayingena entliziyweni yam. Kwakhona yayiyimpendulo kwimibuzo yam, yaye ndaqonda ukuba le nto imele ukuba ivela kwinto ethile kummandla womoya.

Nangona kunjalo, ndazama ukunganikeli ubunzima kule nto kwaye ndiyishiye eceleni, ndingafaki naluphi na ukubaluleka kuyo. Emva kokuba umzuzu udlulile, ndazama ukulibala kwaye ndacinga ukuba yi-autosuggestion. Noko ke, kamva, ekubeni wazingisa, ndaqalisa ukucinga ngako, ndaza ndaya kucela ukhanyiselo kumfundisi. Kodwa emva kokuba ndibalule ingxaki, ndaxelelwa ukuba ndiyagula kwaye kufuneka ndiye kwingcali kulo mkhakha, eyandixelela ukuba ndihlukunyezwa ngusathana ngoko ke ndifuna iintsikelelo kunye nokukhutshwa.

Ndaza ke ndalandela icebo lababingeleli abaninzi, kodwa akubangakho bubi buphuma emlonyeni wam, nakuloyo bubi; ndabuya ndathi ngaphakathi kwam, Nkosi, ufuna ntoni na kum? Ukuba konke oku asikokwakho, kususe kum. Ndikhanyiselwe, ndicinga ukuba, ndaza ndaqalisa ukuncokola, ukuthetha noYesu kwi-Ekaristi, ndathi, "Apha kwi-Eucharist kukho uThixo kuphela, kwaye akukho nkohliso." Kwaye ekumamkeleni kwakhe, ndandisithi: "Nkosi, andiva nto. Mandive, ndiphendule, ndiqondise."

Kwaye ke, phantse ndingaqondanga, ngendlela engokwemvelo, ndazilungiselela ukuphulaphula, ndishiya intliziyo yam ithe cwaka ukuze abe nayo yonke indawo kunye nengqalelo, kwaye ndaqalisa ukuphulaphula iincoko ezimfutshane-ezifana neengcamango ngamagama acetyiswayo entliziyweni-ingcinga ethethayo: iyathetha kwaye ndiyaqonda ukuba lilizwi lendoda okanye lebhinqa, nokuba nguYesu okanye ngamanye amaxesha iNenekazi Lethu, okanye ingcwele. Yingcinga ezibonakalisayo nenothando.

UMthendeleko emva koMthendeleko, iintetho zaba nde, ndaza ndakufanelekela ngakumbi ukwamkela, njengomntwana oqale afundiswe ngamazwi amancinane, amafutshane, nonokuthi xa ukuqonda kwakhe kukhule, adlulele kwiingxoxo ezandisiweyo nezipheleleyo.

Ngexesha leMisa eNgcwele, njengoko ndimamele iLizwi eliNgcwele, ibhinqa elihlwempuzekileyo elinokholo oluncinane, likhathazekile, lithi ngaphakathi kum, "Kodwa yintoni enokuthiwa ngeli gama?" Kanti ke ekupheleni kofundo, iNkosi sele iyiqalisile imfundiso Yayo, nangona kunjalo isoloko indishiya ndikhululekile ukuba ndimamele Yona ndize ndimamkele (ngokwemeko yam yengqondo nokuba ndiyafuna ukuphulaphula indlu yombingeleli), okanye akunjalo, ngenxa yokuba isenokungenzeki kum ngenxa yeziganeko okanye abantu.

Eli lizwi alikhe lindilahlele kwinto endiyivayo. Kulandela uMthendeleko oNgcwele. Uyathetha kwaye ndimamele, ndithatha inxaxheba. Kuphela ngexesha lokungcwaliswa apho kukho ukuthula kokunqula. Kuye kwenzekile kum—kaninzi, kodwa akunjalo—kuxhomekeke kumaxesha athile, ukuba kuya kuba nzima kum ukuba ndifikelele esibingelelweni, ndamkele uYesu, yaye xa ndibona abanye befolele ngokuzolileyo, ngamanye amaxesha ndiye ndingcungcuthekiswe. Ndiyasokola, ndiba phantsi luhlobo oluthile lomlo, kwaye ndiphantse ndizame ukubaleka. Umgca wokugqibezela ukufumana uMthendeleko ubonakala ukude kakhulu; Ndizama ukufihla ukungonwabi kwam kangangoko ndinako, ubuso obubomvu kunye nokubila, njengomntu owenze uloyiso olukhulu, kwaye ndinikela ukuthotywa kwam eNkosini. Ndithe ndakufika, ndamamkela, ndithi kuye ngovuyo, "Senze kwakhona ngeli xesha." Okanye, ngenxa yokuba umgama unzima kakhulu kum-nokuba yinto nje yeemitha ezimbalwa, ndithi kuye ndikude, "Ndincede, makungabikho mntu uqaphela." Yiyo loo nto ndizithanda iiMisa zeveki esondele kakhulu ngakumbi kunemibhiyozo emikhulu phakathi kwezihlwele.

Kunini ndisithi kum hayi hayi namhlanje ndihleli phantsi ukuze ndingajongani nokusokola nokusokola kodwa umntu owomeleleyo uyandityhala, ndizive ndiligwala ngakuloThando lwam. kwaye ndiyahamba. Nje ukuba ndithabathe uMthendeleko, ndiyaMnikela iinjongo zam, kwaye Uyazamkela kwaye anike intsikelelo yaKhe, aze Aqalise: "UMariya wam omncinane." Kufana nemvula, imvula eyagalela phezu kwam, ingqina intetho eyayisele iqalisile ngaphambilana ebudeni beMisa eNgcwele, iyenza ibe nzulu ngakumbi, iyenza ibe nkulu.

Ugalela umlambo kum, endingakwaziyo ukuwubamba ngokupheleleyo. Umxholo obhaliweyo emva koko uthembekile kuwo: amazwi aviweyo ngawo, kodwa asingawo onke. Andisoloko ndikwazi ukuzichaza ngokupheleleyo ngaphandle kwempazamo njengoko zathethwa kum, yaye bendingenakukwazi ukuzigcina entliziyweni nasengqondweni yam, ukuba bekungengenxa yobabalo lukaThixo ukuba bendixhase ndize ndizikhumbule.

UYesu kuMthendeleko uziqhelanisa nezinto ezinokwenzeka kunye namandla ethu okuqonda kunye nesingqi senkonzo yonqulo, nangona intetho yakhe iqhubeka entliziyweni, nangexesha lelokuthula lokubulela. Ngelishwa, oku kokugqibela kukhatshwa sisiphazamiso esikhulu, ukumbombozela koluntu, amazwi amaninzi abantu, kwaye kukho nezibhengezo zombingeleli eziphazamisayo. Ukuze ubambelele kubuncwane obunjalo kwaye ungayisasaza, kufuneka ucamngce ngayo ngaphakathi kwakho yonke indlela eya ekhaya, ukuze ukwazi ukuyibhala ngokunyanisekileyo, kwaye ubaleke ebandleni, njengasemva kweMisa yonke into-ingxolo. , imibuliso—ityekele ekukwenzeni ukulibale, ngoxa uYesu esesentliziyweni yakho, sele elityelwe.

UThixo uzibonakalisa ngokuthula, kwaye idla ngokuba yintuthumbo ukucamngca kwaye uhlale uvaliwe ngaphakathi kobudlelwane bakhe obusondeleyo ngelixa yonke indawo isiphazamiso kunye nengxolo, kwaye umntu kufuneka alwe, ahlale ecaleni, xa endaweni yoko imiphefumlo elungileyo idla ngokuza ukukuphazamisa ngokuqhubekayo, ukuze ndithethe nawe. Hayi indlela elunge ngayo iNkosi enika uncedo nobabalo kuko konke oku ukuze kugcinwe umsebenzi waYo, onjongo yawo kanye ukufundisa ukuba, nangaphezu komthandazo nobudlelane, Lowo unguThixo othanda izidalwa zakhe ukuba sonke sinjalo. , ufuna ukusondelelana kunye nomthendeleko.

bendiyibhala yonke lento [ezi ndawo] ezantsi iminyaka engama-25 ngoku, ndisendleleni egodukayo emva kweMisa eNgcwele kwiibhasi ezishukumayo, ndihleli kwizinyuko zecawa ndijongwa ngokurhanelekayo, ndizimele kwigumbi lokuhlambela okanye ndibaleka ukuya ekhaya ndizivalele egumbini lam, kude nezinto ezicinezelayo. usapho lunkqonkqoza ngokuzingileyo, lufuna iinkonzo zam kunye nesidlo sangokuhlwa.

Ndazicingela izihlandlo eziliwaka, Ndisithi, Yini na, Nkosi? Wazi kakuhle ukuba andingongcwele; Xa ndifunda amabali abanye abangcwele ndiye ndicaphuke ndisithi, "Yintoni umsantsa okhoyo phakathi kwam nabo!" Andikho bhetele okanye ndimbi kunabanye, ndingumntu nje ongekhe uphawule nto eyahlukileyo ngaye xa undijonga. Andiyifanelanga noku. Andizange ndifunde nto ngemibandela enjalo ngaphandle kwekhathekizim encinane endandinayo ndisengumntwana. andinayo [Ezizodwa] kuthetha: Ndibhala kuphela, andisebenzisi okanye andinazo iikhompyutha; kude kube ngoku, andinayo neselfowuni okanye nantoni na, unokuthi, ngakumbi kwezobuchwepheshe. Ndafunda ngoko kwakupapashwayo, kodwa kuphela njengoko ndaxelelwa ngutata wokomoya.

Kukho imiphefumlo emihle ngakumbi, ezinikele ngakumbi kwaye ifaneleke ngakumbi-imiphefumlo engcwele. Ndineziphoso ezininzi. Ndisakhalaza xa izinto zingahambi ngendlela endifuna ngayo.

Kutheni mna? Ndicinga ukuba kungenxa yokuba ndingumntu nje. Umhlaba awundiboni. Andinanto ndizakuyibonisa, nditsho neempawu ezintle nezindifaneleyo, nto leyo ethetha ukuba nguThixo kuphela onokundinyula andiphakamise. Ngubani onokubhala izinto ezinjalo ngobungakanani obunjalo? Ndingumntu nje olihlwempu nongazi nto. Ndibe ngumfazi wekhaya kuphela, kwaye ndicinga ukuba uThixo ufuna ukuthi kum nakubo bonke abantu, "Andizanga ngenxa yabo bangcwele, kodwa ndizele aboni abangamahlwempu - abancinci, ababuthathaka kodwa abathandwayo." akezi kum nakuwe, ngokuba sifanelekile; weza ngenxa yokuba siswele, kwaye kum, phakathi kwabaninzi abamkela ezinye iinqwelo, unika enye aze athi ngayo: "Esi sipho ndisinika, ukuze ukuba ndingathanda ukwenza oku kumntu ngamnye kuni.

Ndiyibiza le [indawo ahlala kuyo] idayari, enye iqale ngo-1996 kwiminyaka yokuqala “yeDrops of Light,” neNkosi iqalisa intetho yomanyano nobuhlobo, kodwa leyo afuna ukuyinika wonke umntu. Usibizela ukudibana, ukuseka ubudlelwane, kuba [Yena kunye] sazane ukuze sinxibelelane ngokuthatha inxaxheba omnye komnye, nto leyo ethetha ukuba sidityaniswe, sisondelelane ngothando.

Iingxoxo ziphindaphinda, kanye njengothando olungakhathali luphindaphinda kwaye luthanda ukuthi, "Ndiyakuthanda." Kuthetha ukuqonda indlela Yena, ngokungena kuqhagamshelwano lomntu omnye, afuna ukuyoyisa intliziyo yakho, kwaye xa sele yoyisiwe, kukho umtshato ongunaphakade. Ukuba oku kudibana akwenzeki kuqala, ukuba akukho kuphulaphula kwangaphambili, ngoko akukho kubambelela kwimfundiso yakhe. Emva koko, izinto zisuka "kuwe" [ngesinye] eya kuwe" [isininzi], njengoko abantwana [abangakumbi] bezalwa kulwalamano lothando, abafanele bafumane ukuqhelana okufanayo ukuze bathathe inxaxheba.

Yaye uyaqhubeka efundisa, eyigocagoca iVangeli kwaye eyityebisa, kuba, njengoko Esitsho, ubulumko bobuthixo abunasiphelo, njengolwazi lwakhe. Le nto uYesu eze kuyithetha kum yeyabantu bonke: Utsho nakuwe, kwaye mntu ngamnye “nguMariya omncinane.” Ukuba siqokelela ezininzi kunye namaconsi okukhanya, sikhanyisa imiphefumlo yethu kunye nabo.

Oko kuboniswa kum ngenene nguThixo ovukileyo nowoyisayo, kodwa usabethelelwe apha emnqamlezweni, uThixo ophathwa kakubi kwaye engathandwa ngendlela ebeya kuthanda ngayo, ngakumbi yiCawe yakhe, kungoko ebhekisa kubabingeleli. , ukuze babe nolwalamano olusenyongweni neNkosi kwaye baphinde bafumane amava obunina beNenekazi Lethu.

Abayi kuba ngabangcwele kuphela, kodwa abavelisi bemiphefumlo, ootata bokwenyani babantwana abangenakubalwa baseMoyeni, ukuze bazise ukuzalwa okutsha kwiCawe ehambelana neNtliziyo kaThixo kaYesu kunye neNtliziyo engagungqiyo kaMariya, njengoko benqwenela.

“Amathontsi okuKhanya”—esinye isipho esikhulu ngakumbi senceba esivela ezulwini, esivela kuThixo ongadinwayo ukuthetha nomntu. Musa ukumosha kwaye ungatsho nje ukuthi: “Owu, anjani na ukuba mahle la mazwi,” uwashiya elityelwe yaye engaphili.” Esi sisipho saKhe, kodwa—uxolele ikratshi lam—ngaphakathi kwalo, limanyene kwaye lifakwe, alulovuyo nje kuphela. ukwamkelela okulungileyo onako ukukuzisa: oku kukwabhalwa ngegazi ledini lobomi bam.Ndihlala ndisokola kuba ndiqala ndingena engxakini, ndisibekela ndicinezelwe lutshaba, ngamanye amaxesha ndikholelwe ukuba oku bubuqhophololo bakhe, kwaye ndiyazingcungcuthekisa, ndicela uxolo kuYehova ngokuzivumela ukuba ndibhale izinto ezinjalo.Kwaye ukuba bendingenababingeleli bokundinika ukukhanya nokundiqinisekisa, ngendingaqhubeki.Into endithuthuzelayo kukuthobela okundikhululayo; Ndiyenza njengenkonzo xa ndicelwa ukuba ndiqhubeke ndiyakuva ndibhale, ukuba kucelwe ukuba ndiyeke ndingayeka, andinanjongo yimbi ngaphandle kozuko lukaThixo nokulunga kwabazalwana bam.

Esi sipho sixabisa ukungaqondani nokulahlwa kwabo ubani alindele kubo uthando nenkxaso, kanye ngenxa yokuba bengabantu abathandayo, enoba banokholo olufanayo okanye akunjalo. Ukuba ubusazi nje into ekhutshwe ekhaya, ngokufuthi idityaniswa nempapasho ethi “Drops of Light.” Ebudeni benyanga nganye, kuyo yonke le minyaka, ixabiso belikrakra, kodwa elithandekayo, ukuba ndedwa. ndikwazi ukuma ecaleni koYesu ndikwesi simo, ndiqokelele la mathontsi obila negazi lakhe eGetsemane, ndixabiseke kancinane kakhulu, nto leyo ebangela ukuba ndizisole.Ndincede ndihlale naye.

Ndihlala ndisithi ngamnye wethu unendawo yakhe kuhambo lobomi bukaYesu. Abanye ebuntwaneni bakhe obungcwele, abanye kumsebenzi wobutsha bakhe, abanye ekushumayeleni kwakhe, kunye Naye ekunyamekeleni nasekuphiliseni abagulayo, abanye bebethelelwe elukhukweni. Indawo yam encinci isegadini, isecaleni kwaLowo undixhasayo, kwaye ngeli lixa bendikhe ndiphelelwe ngamandla, ngakumbi xa ndifunda amabali obomi babangcwele, nto leyo eyandishiya ndimangalisekile kodwa ndisoyikiswa bubukhulu nokugqibelela okunje, ngoku ndiyandiva. yithi, "Asingabo bonke abazalelwe ukuba babe ziinqanawa okanye ii-cruise liners. Kukho neenqanawa ezincinci." UBawo waseZulwini naye uyababona. Ndingumkhumbi omncinane, kwaye andicingi ukuba ndinokuba nantoni na, kodwa kwanezikhephe ezincinci ziyahamba kwaye zidada phezu kolwandle lukaThixo, kwaye nabo kufuneka bajamelane nayo, nokuba kukho ukuzola okanye kukho amaza alatyuzayo, kwaye bayenze. ukuwela okufanayo; kodwa zonke izikhephe, enoba zincinane okanye zikhulu, zilathiswa kwizibuko elinye lobungcwele.

Ndiyathemba ukuba oku kuzisa okulungileyo emphefumlweni wakho, kwaye ndikwanga ngothando olukhulu kuYesu noMariya. Ndiyathandaza kuwe: ndithandazele.

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